Now that grades are up, freshman year is officially over. Time for the reflection post.
The first year of college has come and gone. While a lot has happened and I could clearly ramble on for days about what my first year in college has been like (beads, nazi zombies, Doctor Who, buffalo, clickers, racist pictionary, etc), I instead will talk about my greatest joy, disappointment, surprise of freshman year and greatest fear for the rest of college.
Greatest joy: bonding with people. When else do stay up until 3 in the morning, just having random conversations with people? Or attempt to go to IHOP at midnight, only to find out it is closed? Or see actual buffalo on a buffalo farm? And I have a new group of Christian friends! Yay small group and Perfected Praise! The new people I've met and the old people I grew closer to really made this year interesting.
Greatest disappointment: my lack of volunteering. I used to LOVE volunteering for stuff. Most of it was just simple stuff (setting up chairs, folding programs, etc), but I liked it. In college, that volunteering spirit has become very scattered. I volunteer sometimes for blood drives and I tried being a conversation partner, but neither of those really worked out. And I do stuff for Meyerhoff, but that's usually just a couple of times per semester. What I really want is a meaningful project to commit to. I know the right project is out there waiting for me, but I'm not sure where/how to find it.
Greatest surprise: my super awesome grades and the relative sanity I still possess after achieving them. I don't remember the last time I had such a high GPA. I always thought that if I really focused on my grades, they would improve, but I would end up being one of those neurotic, grade obsessed students that lives in the library and does nothing but study. Thankfully, I am not. I have found a decent balance between school and fun. And even more surprising, I think I actually like math and physics now. Those used to be my two least favorite subjects. I hesitated with becoming an engineer due to all of the math and physics I would have to take. But now math and physics are...fun?
Greatest fear: I will graduate with a feeling of unfulfillment and regret. College is the time to try lots of new stuff. After college, life gets rather serious. I feel like college is the last time to go after all those weird things that I have a vague interest in, but never really pursued (like salsa dancing, sign language, study abroad...). And that if I don't try these things in college, I will never experience them and my life will be empty. Okay, this fear is slightly unreasonable. My life won't be empty if I never salsa dance. But I will always wonder how my life would be different if I had.
But I've got three to four more years to try as many new things as possible so that this fear does not come true. ^_^
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