Irony

It's ironic that love is both the cause and the solution to a broken heart.

Things I want to say to you, but probably never will

What about a relationship do you think you aren't ready for?

I think you are ready, but maybe not ready for me.

Why didn't you tell me you were unhappy?

I deserved a chance to change, to try to make you happy.

You told me you would tell me when you were unhappy. Why did you break your promise?

Are you happy now? Do you think I'm happy now?

I'm sorry I pressured you into dating before you were ready. I'm sorry I was demanding and not appreciative enough. But I'm also angry. I'm angry you took the easy way out. I'm angry you never gave me the chance to explain, defend or change. I'm angry you assumed this relationship wasn't worth saving.

I'm angry with myself. I'm angry I cared too much. I'm angry I was willing to do anything. I'm angry I wasted my time. I'm angry I thought that this would have a different ending.

I tried to do things differently than I have in the past. I let you see me when I was broken, vulnerable and scared. I told you things that no one else knows about me. I went out of my comfort zone. I tried to be better, but I failed.

Why do you think this is better? Why do you think we can be friends when just hearing your name is too much for me to deal with?

Why did I mess this up?